Failure

People always say that the best way to let out your desire and the undesirable, is by expressing yourself. Well, this is how i expressed it. I have reach to the lowest point of my academic life. I am on probation, my recent exam results was so bad that they had to reconsider my stay in the university; whether i was qualified enough to continue my studies. So, after several advices from friends and family, i made the decision to continue my current studies. Law school is not easy as it looks, it takes no bullshit, time wasting, procrastination and self pity. Law has thought me the harsh reality of life, which life does not give chances to those who take it for granted. And i admit, i have.

People's expectation puts a tremendous amount of pressure that does not opt me to give up. I was rape and teared apart by their cynical words and their insulting chants, hating to see me fail and let my future go down the drain.

Nonetheless, i do not blame anyone but myself, and my friends and family have been supportive ever since. I have made the same mistakes over and over again, and have made people around me to laugh in tatters at my failure. The degree of insult that i receive is so severe that i don't think anyone could take up such feat.

I can only look forward and take my mistakes as a lessons, i have to keep my head held high and stiffen that upper lip. I just have to suck it up and focus on life's main priority. Mathma Gandhi once said that "the measure of success is not the result but the amount of effort". I surely have fail both result and effort.

Thou art not to thinks

The most tempest tempt thou ever made

Was it in those beautiful times of yours you contemplate?

To ponder the thoughts of time and being of irrelevant matters

To saddened at subjects that made other people laugh in tatters

Why do you cry at times where joy is around you?

I saw you fall and pick yourself up and stood

You were battered and tortured in both paradigm

In my amazement you look afar into the pause blanked of time

I saw you froze mesmerize by the heavy rainfall

Or maybe the time of your life passes by you in all

I saw the fear and regret on your face while sitting on your stool

I saw the pains and suffering that you went through

I pause and I saw that you didn’t have much of a time left

To see more out of this world

The many wonders undiscovered left untold

That is when I stop looking

As you nodded your head across the street smiling

A story two decades not long ago

When I saw an old man staring deeply into his life

Once upon a time

In the Monsoon

Written by Hisham Nazri

New World Order

In the dawn of the 21^st century, mankind has learned and dealt to live with fear. Ever since the beginning of human civilisation, mankind has never lived a time or an era without a sense of doubt and urgency of the future. It was not until 1492, that a writer actually published his writings about Armageddon; his book contained an in depth look on the end of the world in relation to religion. On the contrary, humankind has been on the edge of their shoes, preparing for the inventible. It has been since two millennia the inhabitants of the world have been waiting for the ultimate global chaos to occur. Moreover, some conspiracy theorists believe that Armageddon is progressing subtly; evidently with recent earthquakes and tsunamis. In addition, increasing formation of hurricanes throughout continents, snowfall in tropical regions, flash floods and landslides, are all a common phenomena in the 21^st century. Despite, all these warnings and clear signs that the end is nigh, humankinds of the earth are living their lives as if all has lost its faith. Chasing for materials and putting money and wealth as a priority has nurtured these species for ignorance.

As the consequences, has resulted conspiracy theorists to suggest that the world that we live in, whereby powerful nation leaders are promoting and chanting of a New World Order, and has prompted the attempt to create a one-self governing government. Meaning a world without boundaries, nation less and bound onto one supreme imperial law and order. Extreme views of such as these is benevolently accepted in the right thinking minds of our “western” society, and it would be terrorists’ extremists views if such theories were exemplified in the Middle East. Moreover, according to Web Bot, predictions has been made suggesting that one of the presidents of America will construct the third Jewish temple of Jerusalem, as commenced to him in the sacred book of Torah. If such event does happen, an outbreak of a war between two religious faction, so great that at the end of the war, man will use stick and stones to exterminate one another. Meanwhile, more and more people are losing their faith and converting themselves to the so-called “liberals”. For instance, the ever occurrences of rape and murder, incest, paedophiles and gay marriages are widely becoming tolerated. The basic fundamental moral value has lost its roots of human existence. Nonetheless, the world that we live in today is filled with chaos and unorganised group of people; this great tragedy, is all evidences of a world ending.

There can be no solutions; but to accept. We were here for a reason and the reason has feed its purpose. As Obama once addressed to the whole world in Berlin, that we are the “citizen of the earth”, he said and as a citizen, we have the obligation to halt and look around; and further contemplate the fundamental and basic knowledge of our existence here, on this fragile universe.

1 Malaysia

The political structure of Malaysia is the most hypocritical of all the governments in the world. We have our politicians or representatives of the people, fighting for seats that only benefit their own interest. Mahathir Mohammad which was our fourth prime minister, once states that the basic foundation of this country is build on democracy. However, I wish to know what kind of democracy was he thinking when he became the leader of the Malaysian government for almost two decades. Evidently, under his rule, he had detained many opposition leaders in the past and called them terrorists without trial of whatsoever. And it’s ironic that Mahathir was at one time furious at the action of George W. Bush for detaining suspected Arabs which linked to Al-Qaeda and called him war criminal. What is the difference between how Mahathir detains his so called terrorists and Bush’s form of seeking justice? The Internal Security Act has to change; it must change its mission, its main purposes and their policies. I don’t see how detaining a person without trial portrays justice and equal treatment which these both terms flies the flag of democracy. However, maybe this is what democracy is all about to the Malaysian government.

I have heard several outcries from the recent peaceful march to the palace, shouting from the top of their lungs “Hidup Rakyat”, asking a change from their government. The march was at peace, it only became chaotic when the enforcers of our government started beating them with bats, firing tear gas onto the unarm crowd and siege them as if they were invaders from another tribe. Malaysia have brainwash their citizens in the past convincing their citizen how harmonious our country is and how peaceful we all live under one roof despite from multiple ethnic backgrounds. And it saddens me that it is nothing like that in reality. We have seen and heard the outcries of our beautiful nation and it hurts me to see them in pain crying out for a simple thing called ‘justice’. However, my feelings does not concern to any of the leaders in my country, therefore I apologise. Maybe this is what you all want to hear.

The distribution of wealth in Malaysia has been appalling to the extent of embarrassment. It is evident as we see there are still many squatter houses in many parts of the capital. It is only the people who ‘bodek’ the politician who gets rich; and the people who don’t gets nothing. Cronyism has been a popular trend in Malaysia, ever since the Mahathir dynasty. As for an example, I will describe and illustrate the works and technicalities of cronyism. Say for example, I have been a well known person in the political sphere, but I have no political association of whatsoever. In addition, I’m a freelance businessman and I have a low income profit. But since I am well known with several important people in the country, I have been given an offer to become a project manager for a government project which is worth billions. And I as an opportunist, I take the offer and with no one monitoring my inflows and outflows of my income, I take large sum of money in the process for my own benefit. And the output of the government project is at lowest quality because of me taking large sum of the project’s money. However, a lot people come up to me and tell me that corruption is inventible; and obviously I disagree. In certain countries, especially countries in Europe; corruption is a phenomenon of the unknown. The European Union had publically and reported its organisation and the members of EU are corruption free. Therefore, if countries like Europe can achieve such success, Malaysia can also too.

Major issues in my world...

Hi! Its been a while since i wrote anything, any of you people out there who is following this blog, please accept my deepest apologies for the delay. A lot has happen lately, a lot has change, the world is changing, my life has change, simply said everything that is around me, is changing. Either for the better or worse, it doesn't matter. Here i would like to list down all the major issues that is happening at this very instant as you reading it.

1. The ministry of finance of the great government of "Sham's world", is almost on the brink of bankruptcy. Yup, thats right folks, currently a certain someone is managing my inflows and outflows of my allowance. I always have this habit of spending more of what i can afford and it always leave me begging for more money at the end of the month. Well its good to say that the build up is in progress.

2. 'Women are from Venus and Men are from Mars', I'll bet the moment you read this quote,immediately you would have guess my second issue. Well, if you don't get it, i'm not going to tell you, you idiots have to figure out yourself. Its been more than a year since we know each other, and it has been a splendid relationship, it was mutual and sincere. However, overtime i started to realize how each others flaws can be a major issue between one another, which at one time was not a big deal. For example, there was this one time i wanted to go to a place with her but she didn't want me to tag along and instead told me that she wanted her friend to be there. It was once in a lifetime event and i wasn't there. She told me that i have to understand her situation and that if i tag along, it would be troublesome and hard to deal with. To all you feminist out there, i know, i have my mistakes too. Unlike you girls, we guys admit our mistakes. You female species out there are too damn ego to do so. (Not all eh...just certain females).

3. A friend of a friend of mine is an idiot. Again, sorry ladies, its a female counterpart is on my third issue's lists. I've known this girl since before i even existed (Im just exaggerating...hehe), and she has been to some extent close to me. But it was not consistent, so dont say im a backstabber. This girl has so many problems that is it were to rasionalise in a numerical sense ,it would be equivalent to Barrack Obama's problems. But the difference is, she will never knew that was even a problem. For example, the other day i wanted to go to a place whereby a friend of mine lives there. This friend of mine turns out to be a monkey love of my girl friend (Not girlfriend as in lovers eh...). I wanted to go there because i've left something in his house, so while waiting to go to my friends house, i was 'lepaking' at my home just chilling, and all of a sudden she text me that she wanted to take her stuff too from his house, and ask me whether or not i could tag her along and that she could take her stuff too. Weh. im not fucking stupid la, just because her horniness has emerge from within and she wanted to go and meet him and god knows what she'll do to him. Whatever the fuck she wants to do, i just dont give a shit no more. All im saying is, she is treating me as if im her fucking driver. Aiyo, sometimes ah, the ladies ah, verrry annoying you know.(Again not all of you are like that). Moving on, me and several of her close friends gave some useful advise, but she will do everything that we told her not to do. Well, some bitches are hard to contain in her dog house.

4. I lost my faith in the govenment. There is nothing to explain, i'll bet by the time you read this post, 99% of you know what is wrong with our government. However, i am thankful and blessed for the 30 million 'rakyat' of Malaysia to pay their taxes for the the goverment to flourish on political agendas. This is democracy, the Malaysian style. Forget what i said earlier about faith in govenment. Because literaly i cant, or else ISA will detained me without trial. Again, this is democracy, the Malaysian style. Dont we all just love our government.

5. Chelsea is going to win the Premier League and the Champions League this season. Because Alex Ferguson said so, David Beckham said so and even the President of UEFA said so. These people have been in the football arena for so long that they could literaly make a mathematical formula on the probilities of which team will shine. And this season they say its "CHELSEA".
To Man Utd fans: Please be advise to turn off your television set on Chelsea matches. Fans have proven suffered from psychiatic illness when Man Utd lost.

That is all folks, thank you for reading, any words that might have been offensive, i deeply am proud of it. Haha. Kidding, i apologise. Thank you.

I RECENTLY PLAYED THIS GAME CALLED


'TOTAL WAR MEDIEVAL'


ITS FUCKING AWESOME


THE GRAPHICS ARE AVERAGE


THE GAME RANGE IS TREMENDOUSLY DETAILED


I'VE BEEN ADDICTED TO IT EVER SINCE


SAMPAI TAK TELAYAN MY GIRL


HAHAHA.


DONT WE ALL LOVE DOING THAT...DONT WE GUYZ???

Plans for holidays

I got a job as a typewriter for a lecturer.

The pay is a dollar for a page.

Don't know whether its worth it or not.

At least i got something to do over the holidays.

Wish me luck.